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Sunday, May 17, 2009

Dear Blog,

Poor neglected blog. I am now fully enraptured by tumblr, and my other two blogs. I have left you in the dust (what a shame... you still have the best title) I guess I dropped in to shoot some angst and anxiety into you veins.

I no longer know if I am content with taking Ap English and US. I definitely want to stick with US, but I'm really nervous about english. I worried I'm going to procrastinate like crazy( like I am right now) with writing assignments and that I'll become completely overwhelmed with the workload. I do love english, but I prefer the reading/analyzing books part to the writing/composition part. This makes em think I should take English 3 honors and take AP english as a senior when it will be focus on reading. But if I do this, I feel like I'd be letting people, and possibly myself, down. I don't want to look back and regret not taking more challenging classes. Plus, I feel like if i back out now....i don't know...like I told everyone I was taking the two classes already and I feel like it would be like everyone would be getting a big "I told you so" on my expense. Then I'll have settled for a slightly challenging schedule like almost everyone else. I want to do all I can to stand out and (I know it's superficial but...) look good. I just CANNOT DECIDE! I just want to talk to someone, and have them give me the answer. I need it to become clear. blahblahblahicantalkincirclesforeverblahblahblah